Comics and Therapy
A comic about learning to live with my Autism
After 6 months, I went back to therapy. They asked me where I had been, and it was the old, stale classic of having no money. Then they said not to do that. I said, do what. They said, just not come. To tell them what I could give, or have IOU.
I have been going to my current therapist now for 4 years, this October. After having seen many during my life, I can understand why people don’t like therapy, leave, or say it doesn’t work. The person has to get you.
“Let’s not be rigid…”, they say. Oh, right. I very much think: No money, no help. I am supposed to wait and thats what it is. Cant pay, no access.
“Life is in the middle”, they say.
This method of ‘it has to be this way’ ends up sublimating wayyyyy to much shit that then seeps underground, building and building, until I tip toe into the office and am greeted with piles of new sludge mixed with the past.
Recently, I realized there is a topic I have never discussed in all these years with them. But I am now, and its punched me in the face. I have started a healing course on so many avenues, and I know through my daily choices, actions and words to myself and others that I have changed. But we cant do everything at once, and I guess now is the time to tackle this part.
This is also why people leave therapy I am guessing. It gets difficult and you have to go through it. But now at least I have proof that if you stay the course through the worst of the feelings, therapy works.
I made this comic without any thought beforehand, stream of consciousness. This is what life used to be…me just making stuff, my feelings, hopes, dreams, fears. I lost touch with that not just from mental health stuff but also from the rancid commodification culture that is the current state of the Internet in how it interacts with Artists.
I need to continue to divest from social media strategies, comparing likes and analytics to feed the machine that provides me nothing in return. Being back to making art because I have shit to say, feels really, really good.
